Weight of the World

I have been feeling very overwhelmed lately. We took a big risk as a family and quit my job for another.  I had to leave the job I was at, because it was such an unhealthy work environment.  So I left my Mon-Fri 8-5 job to work for Expedia/Hotels.com for a much lower base pay with commission.  So I can be making a lot more money at my new job, but more importantly, it is a better work environment.

We knew the first few months were going to be hard, because I would not make as much and would have to get used to my new shift from 5:30 pm to 2 am.  I just didn't realize how stressful it would truly be.  To add to it, we were waiting for our insurance to kick in, and Jenn and I both got really sick.  We both had to pay out of pocket for our doctor visit and meds.  We also lost several benefits we were receiving.  So we are struggling right now, and it has been hard.

I have my weight loss and fitness goals of this year.  (I will share my goals with you in a later post.) I have been doing the 21 Day Challenge from the book "Working Out Sucks." Take a look at my review and book giveaway here. I have added that routine to my weekly schedule.  It is a really good program and has been helping me take my weight loss to the next level.  I am also still training for my marathon.  I know it is only Day Three of all these new changes, but I have felt like I have had my ass handed to me.  I am sore from lifting weights. I am tired from the lack of sleep. And I feel like I have let people down from my running group, because I missed so much the last few weeks.

I know it will get easier and be worthwhile.  I just felt like I needed to post this today.  Life is not easy.  It is work.  Hard work.  Even for someone who has been at this fitness thing for a year now, it is still hard at times.  I know I will make good money at my new job, just have to get through the growing pains, just like I had to get used to waking up and running and eating better.  Working hard and sacrificing for the betterment of yourself and family is not easy, but the payout is great.  Trust me, I have been pushed to tears several times, and today has been one of those days where I have just wanted to lay in bed and not do anything. But I have to get up, and I have to work hard.  It will make me and my family better.

If you are starting off this year with some new fitness goals or life changes, do not give up when they get hard or when you have a bad day/week/month.  Keep pushing; keep working hard.  It will work out, it will be okay, and it will make you a better person.