I have a problem. As in I would eat the lunch Jenn packed me, and THEN I would go get Chinese food. The thought of not being able to eat this really made me sad. I know some of you do not understand that feeling, but when you have a food addiction, the thought of not eating all the favorite foods anymore truly make you sad. I got depressed. I was okay with not getting Wendy's or Taco Bell (BTW, the new breakfast bacon crunch wraps are amazing... I mean gross) or all my other haunts. Just the thought of giving up my sweet and sour was almost too much for me to handle.
When I tried and failed at eating healthy before, I would start the week out right. Come Wednesday, I would justify buying just one egg roll at lunch, because I had already done so well that week. Then the next day, I would buy the lunch, and Friday, I would get the extra egg roll and some extra rice... because I already fell off the wagon.
So what am I to do? How do I take my weakness and make it into a strength? I BET YOU WANT TO KNOW! Other times I would take a free day on Saturday. I would then hit up a Chinese buffet and CRUSH IT. You better believe I can put some hurt on a buffet. I would continue to eat like that the whole weekend.
|Me going into a buffet|
|Leaving the buffet|
I got so excited. At work that next day, I kept telling everyone about PK Monday. I would just turn to my boss and say, "Guess what? I get PK on Monday." I think he got sick of it after the 7th time I told him.
So I weighed in on Monday, and I had lost 9 pounds for the week. I didn't run off to get my fix right away. I didn't weigh in until after work. I didn't want to slam my dinner and then go workout, so I put it off until Tuesday.
I got my trusty app, MyFitnessPal, and figured out that if I didn't get the wontons that come in the meal and only eat the one egg roll, it would be about 1000 calories. I was going to be 400 short. I was happy with that. I threw off the girls at the counter by not ordering the extra stuff and by asking the wontons to be left off. I destroyed the lunch. I ate it way too fast. Next time I will take my time.
It was the best PK I ever had. Do you know why it was so good? It was because I earned it. I was good throughout the week and to me it tasted that much better. I wasn't uncomfortable after I ate it because it was a "normal" sized portion. My stomach didn't know what to do with it, though. When I got back to work, it started rumbling. After eating clean and healthy for a week, it didn't like it.
I can still love my Chinese food, but if I eat it sparingly, it will taste that much better to me. And I am still within my calorie allotment for that day, too. I got on the scale the next morning, worried that I ruined everything, and I found that I was down another 2 pounds.
What I feel like I can take away from this is we need to find a balance in life. I go from one extreme to another, but when I lose the weight, I can balance the foods I enjoy with the healthy stuff.
|Cake is a sometimes food|