I know, I know... It has been over a year. I have been a slacker. I have no excuses on why I have not been blogging. I stopped being healthy. I felt like I was letting myself and others down, so I stopped blogging. I stopped being excited about the healthy lifestyle choices I had made.
Last March during my marathon, I injured my foot. I shouldn't have run the race but did it anyway. It took me over 8 hours to finish. I ended up walking the last 12 miles, because my foot hurt so bad. I was ashamed and embarrassed. I should not have been, but I was. I did something amazing. I took some time off to let my foot heal. Days turned into weeks, weeks turned into months, and the next thing I knew, the weight was back. I wasn't running or doing anything healthy. I was back to video games and eating whatever, whenever. I had to start getting all my fat clothes back out. Then I had to buy some more clothes. I was more embarrassed and ashamed.
I knew something had to change again. I was depressed and out of control. This year, I started doing stand-up and improv. I love it. It was something I loved doing and made many friends. I still wasn't healthy. I started having anxiety attacks and some deep depression. I knew what I needed to do. I tried to start running again, but that embarrassment and shame came flooding back because of how far back I had gone. It was just like starting over again. I stopped going after only a few times, because I couldn't do what I did before.
I knew I needed to do SOMETHING. So usually when I get a wild idea, I post it on Facebook. I posted, "Hey! I am thinking about doing CrossFit. What does everyone think about it?!" The response was overwhelming. So many of my friends do CrossFit and LOVE it. Many of my running friends had great things to say about it as well. I found out that one of the CrossFit gyms (Box) was right across the street from my work. So that next day, I went over and checked it out after work.
I had never seen anything like it. It was a huge garage/warehouse, like the kind you find in strip malls. Ropes and rings were hanging from the ceiling. There were rows of pull up bars and several plyometric boxes stacked up. Large tractor tires in the back. Lots of kettlebells. The only thing I really recognized were the squat racks and barbells. I was overwhelmed. One of the owners, Mel, saw me and introduced himself. He had one of the other coaches take over the WOD (workout of the day) and took the time to show me around and talk to me about what to expect. One of the nicest guys you would ever meet. He made me feel at home and really encouraged me to give it a try.
|Coach Mel Killing Double Unders|
Jeremy was our CrossFit beginner's coach. He is built like an action figure. I am not going to lie. I was intimidated but instantly put at ease. He took the time to explain what CrossFit is and how it could help me in all aspects of my life. He wanted us to know how to do the movements so we prevented injury. The class was designed so that someone just starting didn't feel overwhelmed by all the lingo and movements. By the end of the first month, I made several friends and felt confident that I could do it and join the regular WOD group. I had to scale down a lot of the workouts. I still have to, but that is okay.
|Coach Jeremy M|
|Me and Coach Jeremy|
It turned out to be perfect for Jenn and me. The facility is on my way home from work. It is super close to our house, AND a class starts at 5:30 with childcare provided. So we would have time to meet after work and not have to worry about the kids! It broke my heart to leave CFSE because of Mel and all the amazing people I met there, but it was so important for Jenn and I to do this together. So we signed up that next day and have loved it ever since. We go 4 times a week!
It has almost been 3 months since I started doing CrossFit. I have not missed a week, and I can feel myself getting stronger. I have a long way to go. I am not eating as healthy as I can, but I am really working on it now. I know the weight will keep coming off, and I will keep getting stronger. I want to start running again soon as well. It might be another month or two, though. I don't want to overdo it.
Jenn has taken to CrossFit like a fish to water. Everyone tells her how graceful her movements are. She works hard and pushes herself, and it is so much fun to be doing this with her. We help keep each other accountable, and we are setting an example to our kids as well.
Something I have noticed in all the fitness communities I have been privileged to be apart of is that everyone is so encouraging. When I was running, people always encouraged me and cheered me on, even if I was the last one coming in. Nixa Running Group is an amazing group of people, and they will always have a special place in my heart. I hope to be out there running with them again. When I was doing bootcamp at the Meyer Center, I made several friends, and they wanted me to do well and cheered me on. CrossFit is no different. I am the slowest and last one getting done everyday. I am super impressed on how everyone there works so hard and do so well during the workout. They inspire me. Something they do that humbles me everyday is that while I am finishing, they cheer me on. They will run that last 400 meters with me. They are there encouraging me, pushing me, telling me I can do it. When I do finish, they clap and tell me I did a great job. It makes me feel special and important. I want to do that for them while they are finishing, because they are inspiring me. I am constantly humbled by the people around me. I hope to be like them as well.
I can say that I am a happier person again. I missed working out and love feeling strong and healthy.