My wife asked me today how I felt about becoming "skinny." Immediately I thought, "Duh, amazing!" But I started thinking about it. I have never been a skinny person, and I am on my way to becoming one (even after being sick for a week and half.) Being a heavy person has defined who I am most of my life. I have always been the chubby/fat guy. I have learned to deal with it through humor, eating, or video games. I am changing physically, and I have wondered how that will change me.
I really hope it will change me for the better. I really want to take the good attributes I have and add to them. I am becoming a more self-confident person, and I don't have to hide behind being the funny guy. I can still be the funny guy, but that does not have to be the defining attribute.
This post is really hard to make. Unless you have been really big at one point in your life, it is really hard to understand what kind of change this means to someone. I have lost over 80lbs since January. My goal is to lose 100 by the end of the year. I am on track to reach this goal. I want to lose 120-130 total. I cannot imagine being under 200 lbs.
Running has become so important to me. I really am excited for my first ever marathon this year. I am excited to push myself to levels I have never imagined. I cannot wait till I can just go knock out 14 miles like it is nothing. I am nowhere close to that... But I will be. I have read about Kurt from Becoming An Ironman, and that makes me want to do that some day. I will go from a 333 pound gamer to a 180-190 pound Ironman. How freaking cool would that be! I am going to do it!
So many of you have inspired me to be better, to work harder and to never give up. Keep working towards your goals. You can do it. I am with you 100%. Feel free to contact me! I got your back!
Also please do not forget to enter my Gotein giveaway. Not a lot of people have entered so the chances of winning are pretty good!