I was made fun of a lot growing up. I was a chubby kid and was teased. I also wear my emotions on my sleeve. So when people made fun of me, I reacted. I learned to make it into a joke and laugh about it. If I didn't, they would keep teasing me.
I do not know what it would be like to not be fat. It has been such a part of my identity. As I am losing weight, I am realizing how free it feels. Now, I am more confident in myself. I do have my moments where I do not feel like I am good enough, but I have come a long way physically and emotionally these last 4 months.
I don't know what it will be like to be a fit and slim person. I am excited to find out.