I have not been making the best food choices as of late. I am really struggling, and it has been frustrating. My running couldn't be better, but I am eating way too much. Last night, Jenn and I had an argument, and I am known to use food as a stress reliever. I knew that after we put the kids to bed, she was going to go the store. I decided I was going to eat something. It is still sad that I think that way.
When Jenn ran to the store, I started thinking about what I was going to eat. I looked at our kitchen, and it was a mess from dinner. We had to eat and run last night because of an activity at my son's school. So I decided to do the dishes and clean the kitchen before I ate my snack. I was still grumpy and frustrated with my wife when I started, but through the act of cleaning and serving, my bad attitude started going away. By the time I had finished all the dishes, cleaned the table and counters, and swept the floor, I was in a lot better mood and didn't want to eat anymore.
I was being selfish and thinking of myself, and I started falling into my old destructive behavior. I learned a lesson in service last night. I didn't eat, and I helped my wife. Last night ended up being a good night. The lesson of the day (I think I will need to keep learning over and over again) is you lose yourself in serving others.
I am really excited for Saturday morning and this weekend in general. I am going to PR and get a sub 34 min 5k. I am going to be working the Ironman expo and the race all this weekend. Very exciting!