My weight and inactive lifestyle truly defined who I was and how I thought of myself. I did not think I was good enough for really anything. I once had a boss tell me that I would never get a good job, because no one would hire an overweight person. I baulked at that notion but accepted it at the same time. I did not think I was good enough or even deserved something better than what I had.
Yesterday, I read Sunday's Pearls Before Swine comic, and at first I laughed, but then I really started thinking about where I am now and what I want to do.
The old me would have just accepted this as my reality, but now I really want to live. I know we have to work and pay bills, but do we have to do something you hate day in and day out? I am good enough to find a job that I will enjoy. I am a people person, and I love to work with others. I am a positive person, and I like to laugh. I do not enjoy being stuck behind a desk 8+ hours a day doing the same thing over and over again.
So, Operation Discover Myself has been implemented. I am not going to sell all of my possessions and move my family to Cancun, Mexico. (Don't tempt me.) But I am going to really discover what I love and what I want to do and really work towards it, just like I have with my health. I really wanted to start running, and I have done it. I am doing it. I will take this heavy step in my life and work towards bettering myself for myself and my family. No more just getting by, no more accepting my fate. I am in charge of who I am and what I work towards.
I want to share an amazing video I saw last night. Be motivated, and do not be discouraged! Take those heavy steps. They are heavy because they are hard, but they get easier and lighter!