Today was not a run day and to be honest when I got to the gym I didn't know what to do. So I walked.... It felt good, but I just could not help think I should be doing more. So I remembered that I get a free session with a trainer. I asked if their was one who specialized in runners and I have an appointment at 5:45 on Monday. He is going to help me with my off days. That way I don't look like an idiot wandering around to the different machines...
My brother has been sick and has not been able to train, so I am hoping he will be better on Saturday. I want to see if we can run a mile without stopping. That will be a big deal for me because I have not been able to do that since I was in High School.
I cannot wait for the day I can walk into a gym and not think everyone is staring at the fat guy. I am sure they are not, but I feel that way. I think that is why so many people my size have a real hard time taking that leap. Even now with my determination to get fit and lose the weight, I cannot help feel I am being judged. I can and will get fit and lose the weight!
Oh and I forgot my belt today and my pants are a little big on me.... so this should be fun... not!