Okay... Something has got to change. Since I was sick, I have missed runs, and I have not been able to control my eating. I am mad at myself and my choices. I have a feeling like I am going to slide back into my old habits and gain all my weight back. I am mad at myself, and I am feeling like I used to. Worthless.
I know that it isn't fair to myself to think that way, but I made it a goal to be honest on this blog. Not every day/week is going to be good. I just need a kick in the pants, someone to say, "SUCK IT UP!" I will get back to work; I just don't want to fail. I have failed at way too many things in my life, and for once I would like to not fail.