Life is full of crossroads. Have you ever felt like you are standing there, looking down all the paths you could take? How overwhelming it could be! That is what I am feeling right now. I know some of these options are things that I am not even going to consider, or if I do, it is only for a split second. The part that makes me nervous/anxious is what is the best road to take. The road that will be best for me and my family. I want to do what is best for them in the long run. I want to continue to better myself daily and still feel like I have a long way to go.
I still come home from work and just don't want to do anything. I want to relax, but should I get another job, how can I help my wife, should we sign our kids up for extra activities? These are things that I need to improve on. I need to better myself with our money management. I spent way too much last month on food that I didn't need to go get. I did, because I was selfish and wanted to eat when I wanted to eat.
Just really feel like I am standing at that crossroads right now, and I want to make the best choice for me and my family. I want to continue being as healthy as I can and being the best husband/father I can be. I want to be the support to my family I know I can be. I know that it involves putting down the remote control and not spending the whole night online. I am as overwhelmed at the thought as I was when I quit WOW. Maybe that is telling me something.
Sorry for the rambling of this post. Just have a lot on my mind. I want to be the best I can be, and sometimes it hurts to make these realizations. I wear my emotions on my sleeve.
I have 7 miles planned on Saturday morning. Then we are going to the fair with the kiddos and my mom. We will have a good day Saturday.