I am healthy, and I am in shape, but I am still fat. I have to remind myself that this whole process isn't a 5 minute feel-good montage. This is a process. I have to remind myself that, right now, I am in the best shape of my life. I can run for miles. I can keep up in my boot camp class. I just need to lose the fat.
Being fat has been so much of my identity for so long. It was part of who I was. I was able to hide behind it. It's almost scary to think about not being fat. Don't get me wrong. I don't want to be fat, because I know what it does to me physically and mentally.
I guess this is a time to embrace a new identity, the in shape, strong Chris. I know I can keep the qualities that make me a good person and add on to them. Before, being big helped me be funny. Instead of letting people make fun of me, I made fun of myself and made them laugh. Now, I can still be the funny person I am without all the weight attached.
I am healthy, I am in shape, and I am strong! Fat does not define me; I do!